Mind Travel

Haven’t been here for a while. Been amazingly busy. Lots of things occupying the mind and soul.

First off, my sis got hospitalized a few weeks back and was told she has to undergo open heart surgery this year to replace two of her valves with metal tubes and fix another one since it’s leaking. So the family is rallying to make sure it happens.

PLUGGING!
We’re organizing a benefit concert for my sis to raise moolah for her Open Heart surgery. It’s on May 22, 2009 at 70’s Bistro in Anonas QC. 7pm. Show Title is “A JOYful Celebration of LIFE”.

If anybody knows peeps\bands\talents who would love give their precious time to perform for a good cause, please text, email or just holler. We’ll be forever grateful.

Note: Gonna start peddling tickets soon friends. Thanks in advance. =)

On a serious side note, my sis was about ready to discharge herself when we were in the ER of Heart Center. We spent 2 days there and she was ready to give up at that point due to all the stress you’ll see in the ER of PHC. Overnight, we saw four patients die. It’ll really mess you up. And the stories you hear and observe. Gawd. Parang Pinoy telenovela na live. Don’t ask to be given a bed in PHC’s ER, ‘coz that means you’re really in bad shape. The ones who can still breathe on their own are just asked to be seated. Yes, even if you’re staying there over-night and there’ an IV stuck in your arm. That’s how depressing it is. I never wanna be sick again.

On a lighter note, my obsession with American Idol continues. Grabe, nasa ER kami ng Heart Center ng 2 days waiting for a room to be available for my sis. (Uber ang pila dun ha) Eh Wednesday na yung second day… ayun, nang-harass kami ng brother-in-law ko and other sis ko para mabigyan lang ng room. Kasi sakto pag-admit naming sa room, 6PM na… AI na. Good thing my sis’ doctor has clout. Hahaha!

The Rat Pack

I am sooo in love with Adam Lambert. I still heart Gokey. But the fag hag in me is calling for Adam to win the whole thing. I bet top 3 will be Adam, Gokey and Kris. Go Adam!

Anyhoo, that’s basically it. Spent the holy week with family and friends in Nueva Ecija. Tong-its, Videoke and booze present. We all needed to de-stress after all that tension. And we needed to be surrounded by peeps who love and support us no matter what. I love my family.

Thanks all!

Now I’m just waiting for Bookie’s TOP TEN.

Take note of the date when he posted this.

Ang tagal ha…

Here are my early bets to be judge and audience faves:

Matt Giraud - The Duelling Pianist

Alexis Grace - The Cute Mom

Adam Lambert - The Broadway Hottie

And who can forget sweetie Danny Gokey.

Lordie... addiction season.

I'm back.

I read the whole freakin’ thing. Hahaha! When Marl, Leandro and I watched this:

Marl was making snide… ehem… side comments about Over-Acting 101 and Leandro kept on shaking his head muttering: “I don’t get it. I don’t get it.” (This due to girls squealing whenever Robert Pattinson’s face was projected on the big screen)

It was all a bit too cheesy so I really couldn’t believe that it can be that much of a hit book-wise. So I grabbed Kolai’s copy of Twilight when I went to Cebu. Figured I’ll do some light reading to help me sleep.

I read it twice.

Well, when I got back Aubrey was reading New Moon. As soon as she finished, she handed it over. Same for Eclipse. And then finally, Breaking Dawn.

I WAS HOOKED.

I cannot believe I got snagged by these books. I have never fallen this hard since the Lord of the Rings series… and the Harry Potter series. And then there was Artemis Fowl. Ohhh… and Chronicles of Narnia! So, I guess I do have a pattern. Hahaha! But I also went through a Robert Ludlum Bourne phase and The Godfather. So I guess I’m not a lost cause. I just love sagas.

I cannot wait for the next movie. Let us hope that Bella finally learns how to act. Edward finally knows how to control his “smoldering” gaze. And let’s hope the special effects are finally polished. A small tip: Glittering like diamonds is not shimmering like you got a summer spray tan.

Oh, and gurls, we can all look forward to Jacob Black’s six pack! Get a preview here:

Interview here.

And critics all around are asking why not cast Steven Strait as the bigger and older Jacob?

Why not indeed?

Time to kill while waiting for Leandro (attempting) to finish his self evaluation. I got done a couple of days ago and I had some angst-y moment. You can feel it in the sentence construction. Oh well… as I’ve stated, time to kill so might as well update.

I finally figured out why people love to stay in Sophia Suites when traveling on business to Cebu. I had unit 703 all to myself. Three big bedrooms I can loll around in, a full working kitchen, a dining room and a huge living room. Had dinner/bonding moment with the Trainers. And JV of course.

Went to the Sinulog Festival for the fist time. And to think half of me came from Cebu. Shame on you Cha! Oh well… had fun with my Jet of course.

Valentine ’s Day is fast approaching. Good thing it’s preceded by Friday the 13th, so I can be a (B)witch all I want and it can be excused. I think this celebration is so focused on consumerism heightened by the multinational capitalist that pepper our society. They want couples to part with their hard earned moolah for a day of smooching and sweet nothings. What we do for love… Bah-humbug!

Don’t mind me. If I can abhor a month it’s definitely gonna be February. (Is there such a thing?) It’s too short and it’s too sweet. Ugh!

Can't wait for March. Summer is always a very legitimate excuse to hit the beach. I'll convince Leandro to abandon basking in the afterglow of love with his new lass for a while and come on a jaunt again. Wachatink?

Thanks Adam!!! See you in a few weeks!

December approached and my usual sickness rolled in. Been feeling like crap for the past week. Was too chicken to go to the doc because I always get confined during December. But had no choice and had to be rushed to the ER yesterday. Turned out I have a pretty banged up lung. So, I have to rest and take time off the smokes. Oh well, at least I wasn’t confined. And I really should quit smoking anyways. I should. The would part is the hard one.

Got one item in my wish list a couple of weeks ago. I had my first tattoo. It was a radical experience. Didn’t really think I had the guts to go through with it. But when it came down to it, I was more determined than scared. Although it did hurt like hell. Leandro had a fun time snickering in the background. I’ll be sure to reciprocate the sentiment when his time comes to go under. Hah! If he ever develops the stomach to really go through with it.

Chicken moment

No turning back. Ouch!

Totally worth it!

Gonna get the bigger one early next year. Hopefully I’ll get the design I want. If not, I’ll stick with the one Chocha suggested a couple of years ago. It would be at least 5 times bigger than the one I have right now. Oh well, I’ll ask for general anesthesia next time.

Do you remember Lisa Loeb’s song I Do? Well, I do. And this is officially the theme song of my life now. My YM status would read, “Dazed, Confused and Soon-To-Be-Pissed.”

I cannot figure out why guys love playing mind games. Life is complicated enough without these sh*t. And it sucks big time when you don’t even wanna play. They just don’t get it. Or they don’t want to. Confidence is a trait I admire in a man. But too much of it’s just plain wrong. Get this: You are not a Jedi Master, and I am not your Padawan. You geek.

Go figure.

But I do love the song. Its so apropos. Seriously. So here you go for those of you who forgot who the heck Lisa Loeb is.

"I Do"

When I'm done with thinking, then I'm done with you.
When I'm done with crying, then I'm done with you.
When I feel so tired, then I'm done with you.
Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way

And I do
You can't hear it, but I do.
You can't hear it, but I do.

You're trying to convince me that what I've done's not right.
I get so frustrated, I stay up every night.
You ask me for an answer, and I'm so tired and I'm up in the air.
Everybody feels this Way sometimes, everybody feels this way

And I do.
You can't hear it, but I do.
You can't hear It, but I'm feeling this Way
Just because you say…

I will be ignored.
I will be denied.
I could be erased.
I could be brushed aside.
I will get scared, and I will get shoved down,
but I feel like I do because you push me around.

I'm starting to ignore you, I've doubted you so long.
I'm tired of over-thinking, I know you don't belong.
Now I'm asking questions - no one pushes me around.
Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way

And I do.
You can't hear it, but I do.
You don't seem angry, but I do.

I do.

Seven days of no interruption, no work, no stress, no pressures. This has got to be the best vacay I’ve been in ever. I found the perfect vacay buddy too. Bora is great at this time of year. Especially if you’re with someone who might be the perfect companion when it comes to tolerating your “katamaran”.

Ako gusto ko dun...

Chillin' in the rain, literally

Wish everyday's this lazy...

Weather cooperated too. Sunshine in the morning and afternoon, rain at night. Nothing like waking up to recently washed clouds and shore. And not worrying or even remotely thinking of something I needed to accomplish. Or a deadline that was given today, for today. I realized that I hate the acronyms EOD, EOBD, EOW, and EOM. I hate it when my outlook pops-up meeting and appointment reminders through-out the day. I escaped from all that for seven days. I didn’t realize how badly I needed it. Not that I escaped work 100%. I had moments. But the best thing is that I could hide out in our room and be incommunicado. True to its name, SUN cell didn’t have signal inside the room. No sun. Go figure. But as soon as I exited the room, there goes all the messages that the network stored up just for that eventuality. So, I had to check in from time to time. But the greatest part about the folks I left: they are sooooo self sufficient, I didn’t need to worry about a thing. Thanks all!

Anyhoo, I'm off to Puerto today. Another long weekend. And I can’t wait for the looooong Christmas vacay too.

Cheerio!

Ladies and gays, I am in-crush. Unbelievably, undoubtedly, assuredly, beyond question, beyond shadow of a doubt, definitely, doubtless-ly, easily, really, surely, truly, undeniably, unmistakably, unquestionably, without doubt and irrevocably, INFATUATED!

I like the wit, the innuendoes, the grating charm. Even the poo! (Sometimes)

Meet Mike Rowe.

I first glimpsed this hunk of a guy in Discovery Channel about a year or so ago. Now I cannot get enough of him. I youtube-d him for cripe’s sake! I only youtube David Cook.

I just never, ever, wanna smell this guy.

Oh, to be in-FAT, It’s F-A-B.

It’s that time of the year again where you cannot avoid introspection. Yep. You guessed it. I’m nearing another birthday again.

Ultimately we are destined to create our own path. If I can be totally honest I can say that am liking mine at least 90% of the time lately. I finally reached a plateau work wise. All my Lead functions I can now do even with my eyes closed. My friends are all that, the best bunch of people around. I don’t drink like a lush anymore. Even if I do, I tend to enjoy it more. And my personal life is reaching a deeper understanding with my psyche. I am at peace with the world. Now, if I can only stop smoking, I’ll be perfect.

I am looking forward to my big island hopping in a couple more weeks. Gonna get me some rays, some waves and whiffsssss of fresh air. Looking forward to get out of the metro and finally hit the beach. As Noel said, it only takes the beach to melt away the tiredness and apathy one is experiencing in life. I am, at the moment, more excited than anything else. I cannot wait to lie back and drink daiquiris and frozen margaritas. This will be one relaxed vacay.

On the work front I have never been busier. But now there’s a certain fulfillment every time the deed is done. I still have lots of deadlines that I can’t hit. (Sorry Bren) but mostly I just glare, stare and rant and I get my way. (At least 80% of the time). I have learned to prioritize and let go of the things I cannot do due to lack of time and resources. Some folks would just need to wait. And I am a-okay with that.

Had a great time last Saturday. Ate at Ameci’s. First time. Via has been hounding me to go there for the longest time but it took Ron to convince me. The gelatos are to die for! Try Sans Rival and Pistachio flavors. I swear the taste explodes like a riot on your tongue. I will deffo go back and sample all the pizzas. After Ameci’s we went to Makati Cinema Square to do DVD shopping.

When I got home I staged my own gay festival. First I watched Dorian Blues. Lea Coco was great in this. I liked the line “There’s more to crying than being gay!” Haha! Here’s another from the narration: “The fairy tale had finally happened. Lonely Prince Dorian finally met his other prince, and the love Prince Dorian felt for Prince Ben cast out all Dorian's spells of depression and gave him the strength of ten gay men - or seven straight.” It was hilarious.

Latter Days was a surprise. I was just curious because Steve Sandvoss was in it and I keep seeing him in TV shows. The acting’s a little bit so-so. And the gay clothes were too gay for me. But the storyline and the dialogues are nice. They actually got Jacqueline Bisset in it so I guess the productions alright. Just wished they beefed up the acting more. They should have sent the actors to workshop or something. Oh well.

I wanted to watch Holding Trevor but I had to go to a party so, I left that until next weekend. We’ll see who’s right in the review section. J-Da or Ron.

The whole time I was praying that the guy that started it all for me would recover from the motorcycle accident he got into this week.

Get well soon Gale!

Anyhoo, to end on a happier note, here are some pics of us during Sabre graduation day. We went green!

'Till the next template!

Cheerio!

C-NGIT: Did a variation of my questions since I don't get to update on a weekly basis anymore.

QUESTION FOR THIS WEEK:

Is there a straight guy rule book somewhere that says they have to smell like a badly laundered, did-not-see-the-sun, pair of sneakers? And at the start of the day too.